i need to know am i addicted?
my wife struggles with intemacy and sex. i always
get turned down and i know sex is not the bases of
our relationship. but to satisfy my erges i turned
to porn. but understand i am starting a new me and
these are why i need answers. me and my wife
seperated because i don't "Listen to her feelings"
and i felt no intemacy from her. i am 32 yrs old
and my hormorst are in OVER DRIVE! i want my wife
all the time mentally and phycally. but i get
rejected ALL the time. she will finally give up and
give me sex when i beg for it or she get's a few
drinks in her but it's not intamate. I want that
now here is my question. I turned to watching porn
because i knew my need was more than my wife can
handle and i masterbate about 1 time a day. just
because i don't want to hear " i am not in the
mood" or " not right now". it makes me feel like i
am not the one she wants and i have recently
learned that she probably doesn't. would i have an
issue if she was doing that I don't know. but to be
it was a releaf for both of us because she didn't
have to tell me no and feel bad and i didn't have
to ask anymore.
I turned to god very recently and i don't know if i
do masterbate weather it is a sin if i think of my
wife and want her. I stopped the porn after i
watched the movie fireproof and so much hit me. i
do know how she feels now and i don't want to cause
that. it is hard everyday to wake up and not want
her. now am i addicted? do i seek counceling? or is
this correct thing to do is stop the porn but
masterbation is ok? I am scared that if i keep
going down this path of rejection i will seek the
intamacy sex elsewere. Please give advice.
Sincerely,
Robert
P.S. were are already in marrage counceling.