worse than porn

If you are dating someone that looks at porn, RUN don't walk away. The bible says to flee sexual immorality. It is insidious.
My husband of 9 years was addicted to porn when we got married. I had no idea how destructive this is to a realtionship. He is otherwise a very good man. He agreed to go to counseling 2 years ago and was able to give up the porn. But then he said his lust for looking at other women became even worse because he did not have access to porn on the computer. He even acted out with 2 of my cousins and I have lost them as friends because of it. The last time was so horrific (he consentually raped me because of being so excited from looking at my cousin in a bathing suit all day)I was in pain for days, that is how I figured out why, he just jumped on top of me and pounded away as if I was just something to relief his lust. This was the last straw for me.
He has gotten deliverance from this addiction. But so much pain has come from it that I don't know if I want to be married to him or can even respect him again, even if I forgive him.