I was sexually abused by both parents from infancy until I was 17 years old. My father taught me about masturbation and deviancy. Sex has always been a focal point of my life. For the first 17 years of my marriage I led a double life of porn shops, rest stops, adult bookstores..seeking and having anonymous sex with men...always looking for that thing that would complete me...I NEVER found it. I disclosed everything to my wife about 4 years ago and underwent therapy for the abuse, depression, anxiety, homosexuality...and now the sexual fantasies are returning. I have no sex life with my wife and I need help. On top of all this, I have two sons, 12 and 16 yrs old.