oh god, what a struggle. i have been,at first,reluctant to
accept this women's ministry, i founded & direct 501c jail
/family ministry. i've seen,witness profound crisis, but this past yr was my personal crisis.12 yrs betrayed,dishonored how no person should be. tore.the ambove
item is so on and much more confortation, seperation, abuse
&much more

How do I find these safe people? Because I am all alone. I've been alone with the devastation of my husband's addiction for over 10 years. Only our pastor knows. We saw a counselor for a time, but he still went back to porn. He went to a conference, had accountability partners, but still went back to porn. We now have 3 children (which didn't help him quit either). I just want out. I want to be free from the pain & betrayal I feel everytime he's caught in his lies once again. I want to be loved by a man who loves me completely. A man who I believe when he says I'm beautiful, who comes to bed on time, and doesn't have to be "password-protected" from our family computer. Is that too much to ask?